v0n'S drEamlaNd

2007-01-02T04:43:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2007!!!!

Time files..dere goes 2006. It had been a fine yr for me..hope it will be even better tis yr.
YEAH!!!!

Have been partying for de past 3 nights...
Was at St James on both sat n yesterday.
M O S on New yr eve. Not a bad night.

2006-12-28T21:35:00.000-08:00

Guess i'm really gonna have a hard time in sch next sem.. Suzie is taking our class for production and Helen gonna taken over Ina for drawing class. And we are having 2 additional subject, Fashion marketing and textile studies.

I nearly faint when i hear tat they r nt canceling any other subject and our timetable is from mon to fri...tat mean i have NO OFF DAY tis sem. HOW f*cking nice!!!! and B class is havin their off day on friday... =(

8th of jan will be de start of my hectic life again.
NO MORE OF LATE NIGHT MOVIE ON WEEKDAYS.
NO MORE ZOUKING ON WED.
NO MORE OF SLACKING.
NO MORE LATE NIGHTS OUT.

I need to work extra hard tis sem to cover up those bad grades i had.
JIA YOU..JIA YOU!!!!

2006-12-23T13:30:00.000-08:00

Yan & Myself. TIPSY!!! De gals i party wif tat night.

US + my fat arm!
DISAPPOINTED.

X'mas tis yr is nt so gd. Haven been in de mood of celebrating de 2 upcoming occasion. Remembering how excited i used to be in de past on both x'mas & New yr.

I'm just nt so happy.

Sch in 2 wks time. So nt looking forward to it.

I miss my gals. If only they understand.

It had been a bad week.
EMO! EMO! EMO!

Tired is all i am nw.
Forgive and forget?
Its hard.

Regrets.

Anyway Merry Christmas!!!!

2006-12-13T11:27:00.000-08:00

De best night ever.
Walking from Bugis to Arab street and all de way to Geylang for supper.
And got myself showered in Soya bean.
Kallang Mac to rest our feet.
FUN!

His my best x'mas prezzie.

2006-12-11T10:07:00.000-08:00

Seeing rainbow after rainy days.
It had been a bad wk for me.
A big hug to those who were dere (Yan ren, kah yan, sam,sharon etc..)
Thx for hearing and helping me to solves those shit.
Giving me de best advises, telling me i tat deserve better,saying words tat makes me feel better,treating me dinner n lollipop.
I'm thankful to have you guys in my life.

Afterall, i decided to believe and gif it another try.
Till den i realized how deep i had fell.
*god bless*
And i hope some ppl could jus leave us ALONE.

Results was out.
It was bad bad bad!!!!
Really gotta work extra hard de next sem.
NO MORE OF SLACKING!!!

Shopping was good.

MOS & MoMo on sat.

Time files. a few wks to sch day again. I HATE IT!!!!!!

2006-11-30T10:24:00.000-08:00

Zouk was good last night though dere were jus me & him.
Looking at him makes me forget about every lil thing tat bother me.
Somehow having him in life is a bliss.

Contented shall i be?
Even when lies are involved. Even when dere is only a low percentage of trust...shall i be contented? or do i really deserve this shit?

Trust is not about whispering "I LOVE YOU" into each other everyday.Trust is something to be gain.

Enduring and concealing. This what i learn recently. No matter how hard it is i still smile esp for him.Think i'm getting good at putting up a facade.. which i think was quite a good thing.

Could those lies & shit jus die away when time goes by?
Exploding was de last thing in mind. which i hope nv gonna happen.

or shall i let it go silently...................................................

2006-11-26T10:52:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Yan Ren, Alice & Rui ting!!!

Time spent with him was good. I'm loving every moment..I wish it could stay de way it is, now and always.

Knowing too much, being too sensative had made myself kinda upset these days.I don wish to hear or know anymore...

2006-11-25T00:57:00.000-08:00

Bored.

Met up wif my gals, Pang and Mei Yan last night for a drink at Boat Quay.Felt so good catching up with them.

Had this really long talk with feli last night. It had been a long time since we sit down in a dark place and talk.Talking abt her Love & Relationship.. and i felt so guilty for not supporting her wif Mr 87. I always wanted her to b happy.. but seem like my point of view was wrong this time. I'm sorry baby. You shld really go for what u wanted.

HK cafe again at de end of de night.

I love this raining season.

2006-11-21T08:59:00.000-08:00

Some recent pics...=)

Mood was almost black.
If only rainbow appears everyday.
I miss my gals!!!

Will you lie here with me and forget about de world?

2006-11-20T08:52:00.000-08:00

Dinner with daddy,mommy & bro.
200g of steak almost killed me.
I love de Chau family. =)

I wondered hows life gonna be in 5 yrs down de road?
and i looked back at de girl i used to be in de past 5 yrs.
Thinking of it, i felt happy for those changes in life,
but at de same time a lil sad & confused took place in me.
Is that what i really wanted?
When i see him, i see doubts.

There is so much i wanna do,
Alone.
With him.
I sense myself falling deep,
but i'm glad de protection was even stronger to keep myself from that.

Well, time will tell.

I need some retail therapy NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

2006-11-17T17:25:00.000-08:00

Having you by me had brought rainbow into my life.
Despite of those confusion.
Though all this might only be for de time being.
But i'm almost happy.

2006-11-15T08:14:00.000-08:00

Dinner with Rong & Ting was as usual FUN.. We had a great time cathcing up wif Ting..and i'm really happy that she is nw a blissful lady.=)
I want my BF to peel chicken and fish for me TOOOOOOO....haha

I don understand why we humans are nv contented wif our life?

I'm tired of thinking.Whatever happened or gonna happen shall just be it. Good or Bad? I'm well prepared.

I sat back today thinking of those happening that i had once been thr, though i met wif shits but i'm really glad that those shit had mould me into what i am today.. nt forgetting those good times i had. Foundation yr in Lasalle was one of de best in my life.

Simple = Bliss

2006-11-14T09:08:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then it's time you spoke up too

Out of my head.

2006-11-14T08:34:00.000-08:00

Beautiful time with my special one.
Doubts shall be left aside.
and we shall spent every min with joy.
Nv will i repeat de same mistake to you.
LOVE!!!

Happy bday to daddy!!!

2006-11-12T11:42:00.000-08:00

Last Wed. Before Zouking.

My tots are in a mess.

Forget? Forgive? or breaking away is de best way out?

I don know.

I'm so unsure.. abt you,ur heart,intentions,EVERYTHING

but de pain don seem to exist anymore.

Enduring and accepting it was'nt easy as wad i thought

Blur i might be but nt stupid.

Truth and lies are surrounding me.

To believe or not?

Those was'nt wad i wanted.

Drink Drank Drunk

maybe is de only way to give myself a break.

All i prey for is de grades for de last sem.

*Good luck Vonnie*

2006-11-06T19:58:00.000-08:00

Had a really gd sleep.*Finally* after 2 sleepless night.Spent my weekend over at Winnie's cool apartment doing illustrations, fabric board and stuff... De past 1 wk was really hectic.Last min work was bad, its nt wad i wanted..and i tink my grade tis term sux. Haven been spending my time on de right thingy.=( gotta work really hard next sem.

2006-10-14T23:38:00.000-07:00

Guess i'm gonna have a hard time nursing my hang over. Drank like there is no tml.. hoping to get those shit outta my brain and gif myself a break for at least a few hrs.

I'm feeling so exhausted. Stayed over in sch on friday to sew, but i'm lack of motivation so only manage to finish de bodice. My time is gonna be really bad for tis coming week.. dere is so much to do that i donno where to start. 60 sketches,mood board, essay all due on friday.. and submission of spec top, jacket, bodice,skirt on thurs. *OMG*

I find myself rather slack tis term, where have all my motivation gone to? I needa get them back. 2 wks more to go!

I'm left there hanging. Which path shall i take tis time?

2006-10-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!!! I love working with colours.
Stop looking at my fats thank you.=)
Sexy Jo wif Fatty von. =(

Fashion Management 3A
Fashion management 3B.

Waking up with de thought of hiding myself from de world.I'm tired, yes of everything that was happening recently. I'm sick of working on those never ending project. I'm sick of meeting deadline. I'm sick of waiting.I'm sick of knowing de true you.I'm sick of not figuring why do i hab that kinda feeling.I'm sick of guessing and makin myself feel better. I'm tired of putting on a smile when i actually felt like shit inside.WHATEVER. I'm just so sick of myself and de hectic life i'm leading!!!!

I wish i could sleep all day n night without having to think of anything.

I need a break.. but how could i have one when i have nt even finish with de 60 sketches, mood board, 2 set of garments ( a top n a skirt),Final garment, drawing, drafting..

FUCKKKKK SHITT.

Made myself do some retail therapy. Hoping to cheer myself up..but after spending almost $400 in 2 hrs i felt even worse. =(

Its time to put down those emotions and continue my way of life, like how i used to be before. I miss de happy girl in me.

Sometimes I wish i nv know you.

2006-10-03T10:52:00.000-07:00

Started on "The Dress" project, decided to use PARTY as my theme.I'm gonna stuff her wif lots of research tis time since she said i din have enough research in de last project.

Watch a number of runway show jus nw, and my fav are still Marc jacob...but Prada's 2007 collection was nt bad too.

My mood was blue..but thx to that someone whu brighten up my day. Somethings are unexplainable, i just can't find de answer to my feeling toward that someone... and its nt a random thingy anymore! SHIT!!!!!

but... guess i'm too serious to play de game.

De game that hurts!!!

Never shall i let it start.

2006-09-30T22:58:00.000-07:00

BAD. was de word to describe my mood,feelings,emotions,business,day....infact EVERYTHING was bad!!!!!

Shitty day!!!!

2006-09-29T23:28:00.000-07:00

My grades for design studio was sucha disappointment!!!! Though mine was nt really fantastic but i really think i deserve much better grade den just a f*cking pass!!!Nv did i get tis kinda grade for my past 1 yr in lasalle, i'm sooooooooooo UPSET!!!!!! BITCHHHHHHHHH......

My mood for de whole day was bad bad bad....went JB last nite wif Ambrose, Feli,and some other frens..kinda fun.

Hate waiting....
promise no more next time.

I wanna see a happy me.

2006-09-25T08:36:00.000-07:00

Visit my Shopping blog at de-plush-doll.blogspot.com

2006-09-24T08:41:00.000-07:00

My LOVE!

Time to jump!
Its windy in there.

I love this pic of Jo.

I love de Chau's family! Lunching today was gd. Bro went off to his fren's place and dad went for gym as usual. Leaving mommy n myself.. we did some shopping, den went to Raffles City to mit up with Aunty Amy.Spent de whole evening at Cafe Cartel toking shit and laughing our head off like 3 mad woman.

Great Day!

I can't find any reasons but de feeling was special like those i had 3 yrs ago.
Simple yet Complicated.
Good yet Bad.
Random i hope.. i'm unsure myself.

Perhaps i'm not looking forward for things to happen

Never want to feel that pain again.. so its gd to stay away from it.

Will that shadow ever fade away?

2006-09-23T21:02:00.000-07:00

Party was on last night. Drank so much that i wanna puke my lung out. God. that feeling really sux!

A needa cut down on clubbing and drinking.

Lunching at Daddy's restaurant later..better get on wif my preparation before she start screaming. =(

2006-09-21T07:43:00.000-07:00

I'm so in love with Marc Jacob and Anni Sui 2007 Spring/Summer ready-to-wear collection.

Jelly beans and myself have set up a shopping blog selling some of our used and unused clothes,bags, and accessories. and we will be having a stall next weekend at a flea market located in Arab street. Hopes everything will goes on well..=)

School. Both good and bad. as usual lotsa work to be done.. sewing class was good today as i'm in de mood to sew. Did Photo shooting during Ina's class for our Fashion week project. Modern victorian was our theme for tis project. FUN!!!

I always felt so good after tokin to Mary. As recently i have been facing some stress.. and well after some words from her i felt confident again. She is de best lecturer i ever met.

I hate de fickleness in me... its killing me softly.

2006-09-17T00:48:00.000-07:00

Hell is back.. but i heard that Pattern drafting test are cancelled cos Tang tinks that we r too stress... which is very true. YEAH!!!!

Sat. Met up wif Sharon in town.. did some shopping at Top shop, gt myself a green tube and a orange puffy sleeve top.Followed by dinner at Cream Bistro.
Party as usual at night..and all of us was so drunk that we almost puke.Its so sucky!

Tv time nw!!!

2006-09-15T12:27:00.000-07:00

Thinking of returning to sch on monday really makes me wanna cry. Pattern drafting test on monday and i hab nt even touch those notes yet.

A FULL STOP shall be put to those feeling...Maybe its just some random feeling.Anyway I don wish to face any Unnesessary problem as de stress level for sch are already enough to kill.

Whatever will be, will be.

Have been working from tues till today.. was out on wed's night clubbing wif my chums. FUN!

Had sheesha session wif my jelly beans, Gong and Zul over at Arab street.. De atmosphere, jazz music with de apple flavoured sheesha makes me felt so light and stress free...like a lil kid =) More Gathering shall be held dere!!!
Supper at HK cafe before home sweet home.

2006-09-11T09:21:00.000-07:00

F*cking upset nw. Yes abt de dress,myself,ppls,school,lecturer,grades...almost everything nw upset me ok!!!! I hate myself being sucha big time EMO but i just can't help it. WHATEVER. guess i hab been stressing myself too much recently that cos my mood goin up n down. Getting a "average" for my grade are nt wad i wanted..i want it to be at least "good" de next time round. I'm damm serious abt it alrite! Life is sucha BITCH!!!!!!

Friday. Xinyi,Kris and myself headed to Kbox after our dumb presentation, ohh dat presentation last friday was de dumbest presentation..nt that we did a bad one..but de lecturer din make it a proper one.Still prefers Mary's class presentation. Anyway after Ktv session i met up wif Rong at Wing Tai's private sales.. brought a topshop's top and a skirt at only $33.We den headed to Far east and i got myself another vast. Ting came n joined us for dinner..i always love it when de 3 of us get together.

Sat. Steamboat party at my place..was really really great and successful one.haha i'm dat unhelpful kid that hide in my rm and pretend nt hearing anything when actually they are calling me to get into de kitchen and gif dem a helping hand.As usual clubbing on that night. A seriously good sat!

I got myself lost in those emotions again.

2006-09-05T10:36:00.000-07:00

I'm as if dead nw. Left wif no more brain cells and energy to go on. Was in sch since morning and left at 11 plus.. A good 12 hrs spent at sch, did sewing again.. did de open arm bodice top.. Although de over locker was giving me shitt but it was still quite exciting as it was my very first time sewing a top.

De most hectic time in my life..

School had become my second home.. have been staying overnight almost every wk... and i seriously hate it nw because pimples are popping out due to those sleepless night.

But i believe in WORK HARD & PLAY HARD.. so as usual i went partying last sat.

Gonna do my work ..sleeping at 6 again today. =(

2006-08-30T09:33:00.000-07:00

Have been busy with de 50 sketches for my collection. Now 2 more to go.. but its nt de end of de story yet..i'm still nt done wif fabric manipulation..and of cos de final illustrations for presentation next wk... and god i hate presentation cos i always end up forgetting wad i wanna say due to de nervousness.

Tis wk was slightly better den de past 2 wks, had more time to rest and slp. =)
After next wk it will be my term break but rumour told me tat we need to return to sch to work on some big project.. and i'm really preying hard that de rumour are fake. I seriously need a break. Theres so much i wanna do nw..Shopping, beaching, blading, cycling, church, steamboat and a new hair cut...and all i need is TIME.

This nice lady came and took over Hywell Davies's lecture. Anja was good.. she gave us a 2 hrs lecture. Everything was short and clear compared to Mr Oi Bi Sai.

De hardest thing in life are to face facts, accepting it and digesting them are way too painful... Nothing is fair here in tis damm world. Don judge anything by just looking at de surface. I'm upset yes, but i still believe that de good always come after de bad.

De lock will be break open someday by someone who could read de heart & mind.

2006-08-27T04:30:00.005-07:00

Spent today packing and tidying up my room. Came across some letters from some old frens of mine. It brought back lots of sweet memories..and those words really move my heart again today. Though we don really keep in contact anymore which is quite a sad thing, but well ppl do change..ALOT of changes took part in our life during de past few yrs...and i guess those changes drifted us apart. Anyway i was thankful to have frens that kept me going during those hard time and nt forgetting Feli who was wif me since 13. I love her.

Those letters reminded me of him cos his name was mention in almost every letter.That someone who gave me support during my hard time.My mind floated back to those memories we created.

Beautiful memories.

Everything seem so different nw. Hope everyone of them are doing well in life.

2006-08-26T14:47:00.000-07:00

De past few days was bad, as usual doing sewing and drawing. Meeting deadline soon, tat mean i gotta work extra hard for de next 2 wks. I'm tired..have nt been resting well. I wish dere is 48 hrs a day.

Sat my off day. Never make myself touch any work, just wanna slack my day away. Met my jelly beans for dinner and headed to MoMo for party wif de gals.

Jelly beans and myself have came out wif some ideas and we are gonna set up some lil business soon. Hope everything will go on fine for us.

I miss HK.. might make a trip back dere for X'mas if de Thailand trip is cancel.

When i fall in love, it will be forever.

2006-08-21T06:22:00.000-07:00

2K.

Happy 21st birthday RONG!!! Attended her party last sat.My chocolate jelly beans and most of de K class ppl were dere, its like another class gathering...had a great time.

After de party, my Chocolate jelly beans, Ee pei,Nic,Yan ren and myself went to MoMo..met up wif Cass & BeBe dere. FUN!

Nice SAT

Monday, a start of another hard week.
School again today. Feeling super Lazy.In a Weird Mood. and Suzy's class nearly put me to sleep..had a hard time catching up in class so i choose to follow blindly and at least get some work done.

Gonna spend another night in school tml to do sewing again. =(

2006-08-18T10:15:00.000-07:00

Weekend again!!! HOORAY... after days of hard work, its time to enjoy again. and i banned myself from working on project ,tonight & tml.

Sat is always my fav day as i get to hang out with my dearest yummy creamy chocolate jelly beans.I wanna dance , i wanna drink and get myself wasted. woooolala~

Work gt rejected, its almost wad i expected.STRESS Level up.and she want de bloody mood board to be done in PHOTOSHOP!!!!!and i sux in photoshop, Guess i gotta go back to sch on sunday to work on it ...Arghhh!!!! there goes my blading session wif my jelly beanss..

LIFEless!!!!!!!!!!!!

Class K still rulez... Had a mini class gathering in de canteen.love those antique jokes... I miss having class with you guys.

Catching up with my sleep =) NITEY!!!!

Maybe a place that belongs to myself, a place i ever wanna be in, de feeling i'm always searching for.
My heart shall lead me there.

2006-08-17T07:55:00.000-07:00

I'm thankful to have all those good pals that stood by me and giving me their support. My sch buddies,good friends and my best girlfriends Dio and Feli.

Contented.

I heart you guys...

Working on my collection nw...and praying hard that it won't be rejected tml.

and i'm super happy abt my grades for drawing class.

GO! GO! jia you... dat day will come. i believe.

2006-08-16T00:53:00.000-07:00

50s. was de theme for de cotton project.

I was so busy tis week that i don even had de time for myself. =(

Sewing till dawn.

Skipped lecture..but i went back to sch at night to complete de 2 sets of seams and overlocking.Felt so hardworking..*heeee* Thx to those chocolates,green tea,chips,Ciggs and music that kept me awake thr de night...but i'm feeling so freaking weak nw..DAMMM..i can't afford to fall sick at tis point of time...
God bless.

Everyday was
DRAWing,SEWing,DRAWing,SEWing,DRAWing,SEWing.... i even see myself doing that in my dream!!!!!

2006-08-14T11:47:00.000-07:00

I love tis woman.
Another classmate Gen.
My new classmates Xin yi & Kris

Dead tired.

Giving myself a 10 mins break nw.. have been drawing since 11pm and it's 2 .45am nw, but i'm glad i drew pretty fast tonight..3 drawing in 3 hrs compared to last night 1 drawing in 3 hrs.

Stayed in school till 9 pm today to do sewing.hoo hoo my sewing skill have improved. =) but again i broke another 2 needles during de process.

Weekend was great, met Matty, Gong and Rong for dinner in town..and went party at MoMo wif Feli,Dio,Cass,Yan etc...

Afterall staying single is still good for me..too much happening in my life to stable down for a relationship. School work esp..its better to concentrate rather den wasting my time n dad's money. Don think i will be into any relationship..mayb after dip or degree. Guess i'm still used to my independent life.

I just don wanna hurt you. Sorry.Glad that u r nt angry. You have been nice, thx!

Back to drawing......

2006-08-11T21:47:00.000-07:00

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dryWith nothing,
nothing but the question whyYeah
you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:If you call me today I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn that's sad)
There are many things left to remind me Of a love
that I just can't leave behind me

Deep and Meaningless by Rooster.

I love this song.

2006-08-11T10:05:00.000-07:00

Zouk on wed with Yan Ren and Nic.Though dere was only 3 of us but we had a great great time. haha Nic was super high! and i realized how much i miss my budds.

Lesson ended in 1/2 an hr time today when its suppose to be a 3 hrs class. We just have to show her those visuals we gather and present to her abt our theme and den off we go. Ok, and we learn nothing today after missing 1 class last week!!!

Xin yi, Jereme and myself went to do some sewing, spent 2 hrs sewing 2 seam...and most of de time unpicking.I broke another needle again. It was really hell!

RETAIL THERAPY wif my dearest Dio and Rong.
-A dress
-4 tops
-A pair of red heels.

Shopping was really good today. I love everything i brought.

2006-08-07T04:24:00.000-07:00

Tired.

Was at Botanical Gardens tis morning with my class.. did some life drawing of flowers .Took a cabby back to sch, had a quick lunch den rushed to class.

There is so much to do that i don noe where to start from.
-Life drawing of myself (Next wk)
-6 Life drawing of flowers(Next Wk)
-24 sewing of diff seams(Next Wk)
-Research of Cotton and textile manipulation(tis Fri)
-Moodboard (tis fri)
-Develop 5 manipulations and 25 design sketches(tis fri)

OMG!!!

Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only. Fashion is in the sky,in de street, fashion has to do with ideas, the way we live, what is happening.

CoCo Chanel

I came across de above when i was doing research...

2006-08-04T22:30:00.000-07:00

HoooHooo...Finally weekend are here and i'm gonna enjoy myself today, heading ECP wif my gals later for blading/cycling...
Had a hectic wk, doing sewing, research on Prada, coming out with a theme for my collection for design, buying Fabric,sewing tools and stuff..

Finshed Devil Beside You last night.. it makes me cry so much that my eyes hurt nw.. but i enjoyed watching ah meng, i adored his attitude and character.

Been having de "WHATEVER" kinda attitude ...

I'm tired...

Emotionally ..yess

and physically too..

I believe therefore i wait for de best to arrive.

2006-08-02T08:16:00.000-07:00

Some things ard are pulling me down so much that i can't get myself to do de right thing.

In short mean i can't bloody concentrate on any single thing!!!

Anyway...

Sewing with de machine was quite fun though i broke a needle during de process. ahaha.

2006-08-01T09:39:00.000-07:00

LOST.

Where have my determination gone to?

2006-07-29T22:52:00.000-07:00

A sat that brought me into dilemma. Thing went wrong, i went wrong, de emotions and feeling was wrong too. Life is sucha bitch!!!

Hope its gonna be de first and de last time.

Its time to wake up to face reality den staying on feeling remorseful.

I shall just cherish whatever i had this moment esp him.

Anyway was out to have steamboat..followed by some drinking session.

I love my girly girls.

2006-07-28T10:57:00.000-07:00

Design class today was good. Though was feeling stress abt de project but i gotta get myself up and start working on it..7 wks to dateline..its nt easy!

Went to Textile centre and Arab street to get fabric and tailor's chalk. Walked hell alot today.

Met Dio, Pang and wife at town before heading home.

Where does it lead to? I'm sick!!!!

2006-07-27T06:31:00.000-07:00

Exhausted.

Had a long day in school. Due to de 4 hrs of slps, i was dozing off during class. Anyway today we were taught to due with sewing machine, followed by drawing class after lunch. Nice! even drawing class interest me nw...guess i'm seeing miracle.haha.

Headed town to meet Adeline for dinner at Fish & Co.Food & service was lousy today.

Chinatown again, Was dere to buy some tools n ruler..and i found shops that sells lotsa FABRIC.

Brought a new necklace to reward myself for being attentive in class. =)

2006-07-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

A real tired day!!!

Attended Hywel's Lecture. It was pretty interesting, it started off with ice breaking. Followed by a small briefing of our first project, it was my first time feeling so excited reading thr a project brief. hoo hoo!!! i'm gonna like this module and it's project.

Rong and myself headed down to People's Park centre and Textile Centre to get our tools for sewing.

Met silly tis noon. =)

2006-07-24T05:28:00.000-07:00

At work..(Gong have gt real big eyes.)
When we are out on sunday!

Pattern drafting was our first lesson of the week.
-Standard body measurments.

Class today was not as bad as i thought but it was'nt fantastic as well. Met some nice ppl i guess.

Anyway class ended early today.Rong, Ting and myself went to have our late lunch at Subway..Thinking back its our 1 yr anniversary.haha! Going to class without dem = Black & White, i miss them so much during de lecture today, felt so weird without dem ard.Seriously both of them had spice up my life for de past 1 yr. Thx gals.

I'm now F*cking pissed off with my mom. When you don noe a shit, JUST SHUT UP!!! Why go on and on talking abt things that don make any sense.

Needa find some ways to cheer myself up now... BYE!!!

2006-07-23T08:56:00.000-07:00

Subway for dinner again on a beautiful sat evening.
Thx CPL for de treat!!!

Slept at 7 in de morning, waking up at 2 to get myself prepared for church.As usual i was an hr late..haha so sry Pang!

Was at de New Creation church today for service. It was good. The preaching by de pastors had somehow enlightened me.

Thx God and praise de Lord for de good blessing in my life. I shall complain no more.

Met up with Silly after chruch. Glad seeing him today.=)

I feel good, it will be even better if there is no class tml!!!

2006-07-21T13:41:00.000-07:00

Friday:
-Wala Wala
-Indo Chine
-Late night supper at Newton
-Home

Can't believe that sch start on Monday..omg i'm so reluctant to attend class nw . How i wish dere is no end in de 3 mths holiday.

I'm addicted to SUBWAY.
It makes me drool!!!!

2006-07-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

My mood and emotion have been behaving like a roller coaster recently.
Its going Up,Down den up and down again.

But somehow today i have gt in me
A good mixture of emotions.

Got my mobile and number changed.

I hope when time goes by i could learn to LOVE you.

2006-07-17T07:01:00.000-07:00

Pimples,Silly and myself. hohohoho..*o0p*

Took on sat. (At de Beach)

Called de sch today to check abt my class..and to wad i expected, Rong and myself are in diff class!!! I'm in A and she is in B. =( i'm feeling so upset nw!!!

I DON'T WANNA BE IN A CLASS.

SUN: Silly came to pick me up wif his new ah beng bike hahaha!!! We went to Town for shopping, brought myself a vintage top..which he said looks like Ah Ma..cos he have gt no taste..lol. Had dinner and we headed to de west to mit up wif Paul,Agnas,Feli and Silly's frens. Had supper before heading home.

ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS

2006-07-15T23:47:00.000-07:00

K Buffet
Last Sunday at K Box

Took last sat.

SAT:Hitted de beach with my Gals,Silly,Paul,Pang & wife, Vic & a fren of hers. They played wif de volley ball while Dio, myself and dat fren of Vic went to dip ourself in de salty seawater. Nic joined us in de late evening. After Beaching, we went for KTV session at Chinatown.

Its quite a fun day!!!

Rong called me last night, telling me dat there r 2 classes for Fashion.M. F*ck. i don wish to b in de diff class wif her!!! Time table was out, No sch on every wed.. i tink de timing are nt too bad. I will drop by sch to check abt de class tml if i can't get de answer from de sch's admin over de phone.

School in 1 wk time. I felt stress after seeing de timetable..and seeing de word DRAWING appeared again in de time slot make it worse.I really need to do well tis time!

Whatever it is, i just hope i din make de wrong chioce. I don wanna hurt or either get myself into shit tis time. Though i'm feeling weird nw, but i don mind giving it a try.*God Bless*

2006-07-12T12:42:00.000-07:00

Dat SiLLLYYY...
Drunk man never lie yea? haha tis wad de drunk man told me tat night.
Pang look so cute in dis pic.
Paul de bday boy!
I just love her.
My dearest & i. ( took 2 wks before)

Met up with my clicks Rong & ting in de evening..had a great time catching up. I miss those time when de 3 of us get together. Headed Zouk with Sheron,Kah Yan and frens after tat...Gt myself drunk, de feeling was bad..i saw him, he stepped on me and we acted like a stranger tat nv once know each other. What have i done wrong to deserve this shit?

2006-07-10T10:20:00.000-07:00

Sat: Went to get my hair straighten & cut before heading town to meet Kah Yan & Sheron for a drink.Had a great time catching up with de 2 hippy girly and We met sammi for dinner after that. Spent my night at a KTV pub located at Bugis.* Boring*

Sun: Cass and i went to Kbox for K buffet. Had a gd time! Can't wait to go again.

Today..work as usual.Had a major mood swing in de morning. Met Feli..Pang and wife for dinner after work. Paul came and joined us after dinner..and i went insane after some dumb comments on my hair and went to look for my stylist for another haircut. Its crazy i know.Brought a set of new bikini, its goin on half price. *Good buy*

I hate sweet-talking! I just can't make myself do those thing i don't wanna do..i'm confused, yes and I'm too fickle minded to make a decision.

I wish it never happen.

2006-07-07T11:27:00.000-07:00

Home from supper.Met my wif my dearest classmates (CPL,Alice & Cheryl) after work.We were toking abt sch, de life of a design student..and it makes me realized how much i miss those hectic life in sch and of cos those gd time i had too.

Results for my 2nd sem was posted to mi wks back, and i'm glad i cleared all modules..Thx God!New goals are set again..tis time my expectation on myself was much higher mayb its bcos i'm gonna study wad i really really likes and had interest in which lead me feeling tis way. Nothing is gonna distract me..i promise!

DOUBTS is all i had for de very moment. SAVE ME!!!!

2006-07-06T11:04:00.000-07:00

Zouk.
Mai yan and i (Paul's bday)

Was partying at ZOUK last night with Feli,Dio,Agnas,Paul,Pang and wife.Its a another fun night out.

TODAY.
-Work
-KTV
-Supper
-Home.

Thx Girly for helping me out with my Tag board. =)

2006-07-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

I'm trying hard to blend into those advises.. i dragged myself to feel that way..but will tis gonna be RIGHT for me? I'm happy, yess!!! but at de same time i'm worrying too.

"When de thing u nv wanted turns precious."

I broke my promise.. brought myself a top from Mango today..ok i'm really nt gonna shop for next 1 month..saving up for a new mobile. =)

School in 2 wks time.

Was editing the blog template..and there goes my tagboard!!! SHIT!!!! I just can't figure out wad actually happen.F*ck.

2006-07-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

Have nt been in de mood to blog ever since i return from HK. I miss MaMa..and i will nv forget wadever she tels me when i'm dere, but i'm afraid tat i gotta disappoint her tis time round. I'm losing control of my heart..i met those feeling that i had yrs ago.. and i discovered i had lost de passion toward LOVE.

From nw on de fairy tale dat turns ugly will be left behind as history.

Hong Kong 2006

2006-07-03T06:40:00.000-07:00

Lan Kwai Fong and Tsim Sha Tshi.
We at Causeway Bay and APM. Shit!! i'm missing de food dere.
Brought Dio & Rong to Sham Shui Po to visit de wholesale shops for Clothes, Bags, Beads and laces.They have all kind of design of laces and they are so much cheaper and prettier den what we have in Sg.

Family gathering at Gu Jie's place.
Mommy & Mee
Its Father's day!!! (Daddy,Mommy,yeye,myself and Mama)Bro nv wanna b in any photo..but i'm smart enough to take a few shots of him without him knowing.hahaha!!!!
Street of SeaFood.

Back

2006-07-01T13:44:00.000-07:00

I was back from HK on mon..and i'm missing everything in dere. Enjoyed de past 2 wks..esp de time i shared wif my family.Shopping and Eating was wad we do everyday. It was really great.

FRI: Feli and i attended Cass's Bday at Club MoMo..Got myself drunk and vomited in de washroom. I felt so terrible!!! Anyway thx Joseph for sending me home.

SAT:Just gt back from Paul's bday. some weird incident happened just nw..i prayed so hard for it to go away from Ambrose.God bless him. Met Adeline and Liyong in de evening and rushed down to Nic's bday at Lakeside.. HAPPY BDAY to both Nic & PAUL.

It was funny to see tis CUTE TAG on my tag board. I felt disgusted TOO when dat person gt de guts to criticize me but nv dare to leave down his/her REAL NAME. Why cal urself anonymous when u have a name.Well, can't be bothered with such PUSSY!!!

2006-06-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

Finish up with de packing of luggage. I'm departing singapore at 10 15am tml..hope tat i will be fully recovered by tml.. *God bless*

I gonna miss my gals n frens for de next 2 wks.. can't wait for Dio n Rong to come mit up with me. We shall shop till we drop dead n pee non stop..hahahah.

Ppl take care!!!!

2006-06-11T00:57:00.000-07:00

It started off wif a bad cough..followed by fever and flu. *SWAY* and there goes my plans for sat. Later in de night , i dragged myself out to town for a midnight movie wif nic..Yan ren and Dio..as i thought i shall nt waste my sat staying in bed.We catched "The Omen"..its nt as scary as i thought..but my time in dere was terrible..de cinema was freaking cold and i was shivering when i stepped out of there. i thought i was gonna die man!!!

2006-06-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

Birthday girl.

(Mon) Met up with Wen jun..Jie si..Feli and Dio after work.We celebrated Wenjun's bday at tis steakhouse called Black angus..de food was good, we had so much to eat that we almost puke after de dinner.Anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY Wenjun..Best wishes to u and ur baby girl!!!

(Wed) Was at Zouk with Dio..Feli..Sher..Paul..Nic..Pang and his wife.After gulping down glasses of chivas, i was wasted. Everyone was so high..and i found myself smooching with dio..haha..gosh so les!!! After zouk, i was sent home by Paul..Thx ppl!!!! i love de night out.

Time files..it seem to be passing so fast.Soon sch will starting again, anyway hope to recieve my results before i leave for HK.
Huda & Rain was toking abt Sheesha today ..tat gets me so excited and makes me so wanna try dem..
Have been working so much for de past 1 month, and i'm nw so sick of doing retail. IT SUX so much!!!!!!!yuck.

2006-06-04T08:09:00.001-07:00

My girlys...

Heading to Beach!!!
(SAT) Had a fantastic day at de beach. De weather was good and i had a great time relaxing myself. After dinner at Harbourfront, we headed town as Dio and myself had booked tickets for "She's The Man" its a real good movie that kept de both of us laughing non-stop. Enjoyed so much. Anyway thx dio for de Anna Sui perfume.Its lovely!

(SUN) Met Ambrose the silly for dinner. I was so surprise to receive my fav chocolate... Though i left it wif him but i'm happy for de lil surprise..Thx silly!!!

2006-05-30T11:59:00.000-07:00

Finally gt myself a nice stand for my Necklaces & Earrings.

Happy 3 friends..Hooo lala..Hooolalala..
Thx for de Shades Alice..I love it!!!
We at Paulaner..
Cream Bistro
Was out at Town to celebrate my bday with a few classmates of mine. Had dinner at Cream Bistro, haven been dere for quite some time..it used to be Bugtowner hang out place..i miss those time!!! We den went over to Paulaner for a drink..its a great place to chilled. Ppl..Thx for de presents and company!!! really did enjoyed myself..

It had been a month since rong , ting and myself get together..I miss dem and those time we shared.

Happy Birthday to MEEE

2006-05-29T20:23:00.000-07:00

Their kisses drive me insane.
Creamy & yummy!
I was so excited tat i forgt to make a wish.

Ah pang and his wife.
His a silly!!!!
Shermain my Shopping buddy.
De best budd i ever had.
Cass a good fren of mine.
Here comes my jellybean.
My pretty chums.(3some)
She goes " Bei Bei Bei Bei" all de time..but i heart her for tat.
I love de way they posed.haha We always love taking pic in de washroom.*Weird*
Rosy de Beauty.
Mr policeman Loo Yanren..
Ah pang & Myself.
The sweetest thing on earth is to have her by me.
(Sat) Before heading out.
I'm 20..haha its fast, time files man..birthday was great tis yr, We went to Lash den hopped to Club MoMo..Had a great night. A Big "Thank You" to those whu came for my bday party,those whu brought me Presents and those whu rem..i'm glad to receive those sms,msn message & testis from u guys.*MUACK* A Big Big "hug" to my besti Dio & Feli for planning everything and my budds Nic and Yanren for buying me my fav strawberry shortcake..I felt bless with u guys ard. LOVE!!!!!!!

My family celebrated for me last night..Thx for everything daddy!! =)

I'm thankful!!
Praise God for those blessing.

2006-05-24T12:53:00.000-07:00

I'm getting sick of working..i learnt nt to be nice to others and let them take advantage of me but i hate de angel in me..y am i always so soft hearted...arrghhhh!!!!

Finally found a top which suited de dress code for my bday party tis sat..YIPPPPY!!!! Cheap & nice *gd buy*

It's never easy..and never will it be.

2006-05-22T10:44:00.000-07:00

Outside City Square wif Ambrose.
On ourway to JB...
Took last sat..at Upub.

Have nt been in de mood to blog. Anyway i had a great weekend..FRI, went rounding wif Feli..Ambrose..Paul and his frens..after tat night, i was motivated to take up driving and get myself a license...i'm really determined tis time.haha nt gonna be lazy even if de driving centre is quite a distant from my place.

Headed JB wif Feli..Ambrose..Ah pang, Mei yan and his frens on SAT. Planned to shop dere but nutting seem appealing to me..so at de end of de day i only gt myself 3 bottles of nail polish.We had seafood for dinner before making back.Its good and cheap!!! We went to chilled out at Can's cafes before going home to rest.

2006-05-16T10:38:00.000-07:00

Finally finished "In Her Shoes" ..haha spent most of the time reading it in bathroom after de high-protein steamboat..my family are indulge in meats!!!De steamboat have nutting more den diff kinda beef ordered from diff country,(which actually tasted de same to me)pork..and some other food tat contain meat.

"In Her Shoes" De ending was gd..My eyes was teary toward de end of de story..i bet Dio gonna make fun of me again if she see tis..i don love to cry but it's really touching.

Something weird happened in de train when i'm heading home from work.There is tis guys that came into de train..i din really notice dem until i felt someone kept staring at me..and after awhile he moved away from his frens whu are still on de train and came to stand beside me..I felt weird and i tot he might b someone i know or mayb some long lost fren but his face is'nt familiar at all after taking a glance at him and was shock tat he was looking at me too..and i was quite scare..but lucky thing tat i'm alighting at de next stop.

I'm departing Sg on 12th of june..i'm glad daddy book de morning flight 10.15. but i will face problem during de return..cos dio & rong's flight are at 8 plus at night and mine is at 4 plus in de noon..but anyway i'm super EXICTED..3 wks more to seeing Ma Ma and Ye Ye and ya also that how lian cousin of mine *sian*.

2006-05-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

Finally got to meet up wif my budds (Nic & Yan ren) after all these wks of me being busy or they being confined.We meet up at town..den later made our way down to Marina Square just to have dinner at Carl's jr as Yan ren recommended tat they have de best burgers in town..

Met up wif Cass and Feli to chilled out at U Pub.Was home after dat..reading "In Her Shoes" borrowed to me by Dio months ago..wanting to finish it by next wk so tat i can start on The Da Vinci Code.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY....

2006-05-12T12:26:00.000-07:00

Was out for supper after work with Connie..Zul and a fren(loser) of hers.*Suay*After prata we hop into a ktv pub near by..nt having fun actually cos tat f*cking loser was holding onto de mic when ever its our turn to sing and behaving like a pro singer when his singing is out of tune all de time..its ok, but he even snatch de mic, cushion over from me and saying some weird thing guy wun normally say.. its my first time seeing a guy act tis way which kind of freak me out..can't tolerate childish guy like him.. mayb i'm just down on luck to meet such LOSER!!!

Brought mommy a pair of earrings for Mother's day..actually i quite like de design of it and tinking tat we can share..ahahah..

2006-05-10T12:15:00.000-07:00

Its scary i know...hahahah.
My jellybean & me
Taken some wks back..Seeing her in hk soon..
I love tis drawing of mine tho its nt very nice.
A problematic day.Rong rang me telling me tat she is facing a shortage of $200 in NAC.I went down..Gong and Meizhen came down too..we had a good time searching high & low for de $200 hoping tat we could find it hiding in some bags or purses GOSH..I wondered why do she want to steal when she had a pair of hands to earn those cash..Ain't she feeling any guilty?

Gong..Mei zhen and myself went for supper and we stuff ourselves with prata and indian rojak..and i felt like i had created some sin after eating those oilly food.Gotta start on my diet plan soon..=(

I have been pushed back to de realistic world of mine.No worries..Fate shall lead de way.

2006-05-09T11:23:00.000-07:00

Happy 23th bday my dearest.(at her party)
Making our way back to Bugis to meet de rest to celebrate Feli's bday again..
De sweetest Ba rong rong and me wif a Wanna shit face.

De naughty girls used my camara and took lotsa pics when i'm out wif zul to buy feli's present..and i gt a shocked of my life when i on my camara..
Matty and i had de same watch..but i prefer hers(black)

Sunday..
Aidah last day at work..=( i'm gonna miss her.Anyway she told me tis before leaving.." If you like somebody just go for it" ahaha..tis woman is just so cute..

I'm getting ready to kill her wif a mop...hohoho.
vacuuming makes her HIGH.
Hey woman..i'm surely gonna miss those happy time dat we shared during work..all de best and hope u find a better job soon.
Aidah Baby..Connie de Horny..and myself.
Beautiful moment

Back from party....

2006-05-06T13:52:00.000-07:00

Before they start kissing me.
3some.
After dinner.
FISH is finally here and Feli's FISH gave me a shock..
Hungry ppl waiting for their fish to come.

De Vain bday gal.
It was a great sat. Meeting up wif my best girlfriends(feli..Dio) for dinner at Fish & co..which i was craving for since mon..but nw i'm sick of it already..haha.We ordered more den wad we can eat..and i almost puke.

Today Feli celebrated her Bday at MoMo..Lotsa friends was dere..Cass..Bel..dio..Connie..etc...had a great time drinking with dem.Cass & dio was so high dat they kept kissing me non stop... hahaha..and kept repeating " I LOVE YOU" to me... ahaha and of cos i kiss dem back too. =) It was fun man!!!! De bday gal was dead drunk..viomitted den slept and later woke up and continue dancing.Hope she enjoyed de party.( Pics laterrrr)

I wondered wads wrong wif me.those emotions of mine are affecting me so badly. Can things get better?

2006-05-05T09:55:00.000-07:00

Waking up thinking tat its still 8 in de morning..but gt a shock of my life when i check my mobile..and it was actually 12.30pm..and i gotta get to work at 1.40..haha HENG..i'm only 5 mins late.

Had fun wif matty during work..i think both of us made a gd scriptwriter if we were given a chance.we have gt tis power in imagining things...hahaha..its great workin wif her..

TIME will tell..it will prove everything.

2006-05-03T08:08:00.000-07:00

To me life is like a train. . many Passengers board de train at beginning. some drop off after a few stops..some stayed..more passengers boarded and some drop off again..not many would actually stay till de very last stop of life.After all tis yrs, i learnt to treasure ppl ard me.. believing tat nutting last forever..of cos there r rare cases ..memories are de only thing that lasted forever..so i nv fail to create memories wif those nice peez in my life.Hoping that de memories will company me thr de diff stops in life.

I did something that i never ever tried before.Its took me 2 hrs to actually pick up my guts and get myself to do it, as i don felt like facing any regrets again.well, i'm glad i did it..and its a sign dat i shld move on wif my life.I don deny bring kinda upset abt it but at de same time i'm happy too cos i did something abt it.

Today,A passenger dropped off from my train of life.

I love those who cared..

2006-05-02T09:45:00.000-07:00

Can't believe i'm blogging almost every night..i'm just so free nwadays..have gt nutting much to do at home..and i tink i have developed tis habit of blogging every night..

I miss school,those fun time,those hectic life style i had,those late night rushing for projects just to meet dateline,those cursing n swearing during Luis class,sneaking outta class for air con in de lib,havin lunch opp sch ( i miss de lil pau) haha..toking abt pau makes me hungry. Anyway will be having tis class BBQ on de 19th..looking forward to it.

Having nutting to do at home, i took out all my new n old clothes..and i try dem..matching wif diff bottom n tops..and yeahhh i found many new style in wearing dem..but i seriously need a black leather bag.=(

Bed time!!!

2006-05-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

Another day at work..was my first time doing morning shift..and time passed by pretty fast.Anyway from tis wk onward i will be working almost everyday..i'm gonna earn more and try to save up for HK trip.=)

Met up wif Adeline for dinner at Fish & Co..love their New York Fish & chips.

Enough.Guess i'm getting overboard. Shall just put everything aside for de time being.

Pain.

2006-04-30T10:07:00.000-07:00

Pain is all i can feel.ok its really ridiculous of me but i donno why i'm just feeling tis way nw. I look up to ppl whu r daring enough to confess their love and i envy ppl whu had a chance to confess their love.. emo is a part of me nwadays and i seriously hate it.

I really appreciate those lil advise tat my frens gave me (esp Alice)and i'm sorry for goin on n on.

Work was gd today..ppl there had brighten my day. Seiyu was having 20% storewide..Gt myself some tops from Topshop n Dorothy Pekins.So cheap!!!!

I hate to see ppl cry esp those who r dear to me. Had a long n good talk with my besti last night.

2006-04-28T09:16:00.000-07:00

Work was super good today. Had fun working wif mattyy & Aidah baby.Anyway Mattyy and i was playing and she said wanting to find any passer-by who suit me(as a bf) hahaha..and i'm so sure tat she wun see any..but within 10 mins he appeared..i was shocked!!!! and de next thing matty told me was tat she noe him. What a small world.haha..

Is there really a thing called FATE?

2006-04-27T10:48:00.000-07:00

God grant me that bits of courage please.

Work was good today.I'm in a better mood. and she promised me tat she wld be good..i wish she wld keep her promise.

Rong & i was getting excited abt our major..*FASHION* can't wait for sch to start man. wooohoohoo!!!

Miss......

2006-04-26T10:13:00.000-07:00

Have been suffering from tis really bad cough n flu. Its so bad tat i only manage to slp for 4 hrs.Felt like digging my lung out! Argghhh..

Was out to meet Alice today..we went to NAFA to view de Exhibition. Some of their work was really pretty..well shall nt comment so much on it. Will Lasalle be having tis kinda exhibition too? will be looking forward to it.Anyway we went to catch a movie "Take a Lead" i give it 4 stars..i love de music in de movie.

Wang li hong is so charming..i saw 1 of his mtv online..i was like WAHHHH..hahaha..and i like his latest album.

I never had anything against china ppl..but tis china gal in class was really too much..gt us into trouble by finding de easy way out and yet she gt de bloody guts to bitch abt us behind our back saying tat she did all de work.. everyone in class and Mary had gt their own pair of eyes to see who is doing de work alrite..i don care abt those shit she tel others..as long as we r on de right track doing de right thing.If you r gonna work wif tis kinda attitude its gonna get you nowhere.God bless.

Plain.

2006-04-25T11:03:00.000-07:00

Don judge by just looking at de surface.Things are never beautiful and Never are they perfect.

Disappointment was here today. i really wish tat she could wake up or shld i use de word grow up!!!! Hoping that she walk de right path n do de right thing..i think i hab always did my part as a friend..being dere no matter wad..even when u hab neglected mi for ur bf..i will still b dere after de break up..no matter wad u did..i will still forgive u.but today, doubts came running to me..i start to wonder.

Tomorrow will be a better day i wish.

You make me wanna..

2006-04-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

My fingers, feli & dio.

Retardo meeee..=p ohh ya i love 3some.
I'm nt drunk alrite..jus excited.haha
Yeahhhh..cheers.(anyway tis r de pics we took last sat at Can's cafe)

I'm like living in a world of only me & myself. wished so much to b alone but too bad gotta work today if nt i might have shut myself up in my room(Sry aidah din really tok or entertain u today, but we had a great time in de train huh) we was taking a train filled wif lotsa weirdo..haha..kinda scary actually..hope u reach home safely ya.

Simple is nice..I'm in love wif simplicity! plain yet special makes me wanna find out more. i wish i could.

Life is way too unfair. I wish i was happier..

2006-04-22T11:26:00.000-07:00

Yesss...again i met my chance..i was shocked seeing him.. again as usual..i dared nt even smile. but i'm glad tat i gotta see him today..

Somehow i hate myself, i wish i had feli's guts.

2006-04-20T21:56:00.000-07:00

Was lunching at paragon Sushi Tei wif my parent. and was tokin abt de HK trip again, nw they decide to go too. so i have to take go wif them first and meet my gals at HK after my parents n bro return to sg.Tat mean i'm takin plane alone when i return to sg...ALONE! how nice.. and i will b staying dere for abt 2 wks..hooorray!!!! more shopping..more time wif grandparent...

I'm searching hign n low... is that him i wondered?

Him..yes i'm missing tat stranger.

2006-04-19T12:09:00.000-07:00

Just gt back from Zouk. It was'nt very fun tonight.and i'm suffering from a bad headache thr out de night. Had a great time chatting and drinking away wif my girly dio..which had made us kinda tipsy b4 hitting de dancefloor. Was clubbing dere wif feli..dio..ting..rong..and rong's frenz.

Was in de shopping mood today.. brought myself a top from Forever 21 and another top from Far east. I wish i had more time to shop..

I wonder y do he appear on my mind whenever i'm feeling tipsy? Tats really weird.Whatever..i need a gd rest before Fever comes running back to me again. Sweetest dream!!!!!!

I'm in love with tis song...

2006-04-18T20:14:00.000-07:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did, you felt so hard

I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing!

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

Beautiful time ahead...

2006-04-18T10:49:00.000-07:00

Act cute rulez can....
C Gay and us...
Killing the "QUEKKKKKK"
Lunching!!!
Heading town..

I'm happy.. nt sure abt de reason but just feeling so good.

Fever from yesterday. but feeling much better nw.. it must be those bars of chocolate & sticks of sotong tat i had been eating almost everyday tat cause my fever..NO MORE heaty food for me!!!

Having some Random thoughts in mind. Boooooooo..

2006-04-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

Exam is over...yup.i'm really gonna enjoy my 3 mths of holidays..will be working too..and i'm gonna prove my girlfriends WRONG..show dem dat i can save money and stop shopping for de time being...haha.. can't wait to go back to HK..i'm missing everything in dere..i wanna shop till i drop. I wanna bring grandparent for tea & dim sum..and go swimming wif grandma..

Went to cini for lunch today wif my classmates..it mayb de last time we sit together like today for lunch..i'm gonna miss you guys for sure.

There is something abt him.

2006-04-15T13:30:00.000-07:00

Out of my 20 yrs of life, i finally took my guts out and yess..I KILLED A LIZARD for de very first time...hahaha...i might sound cruel but it better to kill dem den let dem crawl ard de house.

Was out for movie wif my girlys..caught a horror movie ( black night).

Ppl had been complaining to my besti tat i'm DAO and i look arrogant when i don speak. I'm really not wad u ppl think..tat might be de surface of me..ok i confess tat i don feel comfy toking to ppl or guys i donno but ya i'm friendly if u manage to break de ice.and i don tink i had anything in me to b arrogant abt.I'm juz as normal as anyone on de street.

Changes..yes alot in me.i admit those mindset had changed.but well, i'm still me.I still treasure my frenz.. my family..and myself.

I might nt have everything in life but still i'm thankful for god's blessing.Things don come easy..eveything in life paid off at least a lil of hard work..

Too numb to feel.

2006-04-14T11:20:00.000-07:00

Passion is all tat kept me going.
Was home de whole day..tot of studying for my Art History exam but...............it seem so hard to get myself started...slacking my time away..watching tv..browsing friendster...painting my nails i'm doing everything excerpt for studying.Looking at de history book makes me wanna cry..i rather do project or draw den sitting dere reading on notes which seem more like a sleeping pill to me. Guess i'm gng to bed soon den wake up tml n REALLY get myself sit dwn to study..

i'm so addicted to chocolates & Crispy sotong..i hab been living on it everyday..and its making me FAT!!! but i just can't kick dem away..HOW???

Last..

2006-04-14T00:18:00.000-07:00

My blue form project..

Ash & i
FS 2K.

Our fav lecturer.
CK..Lip..Lix..and happy 3 frenz
MaMa and i...

Fell asleep wif my glasses on..and daddy had to help me take dem off. I'm always a lil girl to him. i wondered if i'm dreaming as i heard him saying tat he had already brought me de air ticket to HK..but when i was abt to ask him..he was already out of my rm.. and i slept for 12 hrs!!!

Everything had come to an end..no more projects, no more presentation, no more team work, no more lecture,no more doing projects thr de late night..i'm left wif only a history exam to take and i'm gonna b free from school for 3 mths b4 i start on my major. 3 mths of holidays!!!!! Feeling kinda excited abt it..wonder wad will happening during de next 3 mths..

It de last class of visual studies.some of our work had been chosen by Mary for some exhibition..Lots of foto taking session..i'm sad dat de class wld b seperated but again best wishes to each n everyone.

2006-04-11T09:38:00.000-07:00

Incomplete...

When de time is right.

2006-04-08T12:49:00.000-07:00

Clubbing at MoMo was'nt fun but i do enjoyed de time spent wif my gals.

I'm feeling uncomfortable wif wad i'm wearing so as usual i brought a new top and changed into dem after paying. I wish to change tis BAD HABIT of mine.

Mommy brought me to de saloon in de noon and we sat dere for almost 3 hrs getting our hair coloured and highlight. ok mine is black as usual and i highlighted red but it makes no diff to me. *waste of money*

Was in Topshop helping Nic to get a cap and de stupid salesman din remove de tag when i pay. and dere goes de alarm when i step out of de shop...
De fucking sales man: Did u steal anything?
Poor ME: NO!!!!Do i look like i have steal a cap tat cost only $29? and i pass him de damm plastic bag.
I was damm pissed..how can he ever ask me if i steal anything when his chee hong colleague din do a good job when he is doing de cashier and kept askin mi whu am i buying de cap for and if i'm single.Wad kinda working attitude is tis man!!!

2006-04-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

I love tis pics & my lesbians
My pig..Ting's tortise & Rong's lion.
Caught in action SCENE 3 (another round of kissing)
Caught in Action SCENE 2 (Changing of partner)
caught in action SCENE 1 A story behind tis..

Happy 3 friends in sch.
Tipsy nt me.
Cotton candy & jellybeans wif mi.

A week of STRESS & HARD WORK. Days haven get any better till nw, Projects are still never ending and i'm still struggling here to finish every bits of it. HECTIC!!! getting things done was'nt easy esp when working wif ppl whu r lazy and tend to find de easy way out.All those hard work ran down de drain like waste water. Disappointed!

Was in sch again for another presentation.I'm wishing for nutting but juz a pass in tis screwed up project. After all those shit..de 3 of us went for dinner in town and did some shopping..Rong & i both gt a pair of shoes from Topshop..i love my white shoes. 5 more days of sch and i will b stress free again.

2006-04-01T11:37:00.000-08:00

YesHH..daddy is back. i miss him so much. was glad to hear tat everyone dere is fine..guess daddy had a great time gathering wif dem. I wish i was dere too. wanna hug granny..

Was out shopping wif mommy in de noon..she brought mi a watch from Guess instead of Nautica. cos she said dat de Nautica watch is nt nice..and i suddenly felt tat its quite plain. Thank you Mommy..love u!

Went to meet Nic.and continue to shop in town..brought a really really nice dress i love de cutting..and a bag which i tink it's quite unique. Was at some Ktv pub wif dio N feli at night...

2006-03-30T18:24:00.000-08:00

Happy 3 friends.suppose to do drawing but ended up picturing.ohh ya i love dem.
At fable. 2 days ago.
Disappointed in myself..yes. Have nt been putting in effort for Mary's project..Looking at those work we have done, only makes me stress..i'm nt a gd leader and i'm bad at managing grp work..It's time to buck up!!! 3 wks more to go and it's de end of Foundation yr..it had really been a fruitful yr for me..learning things tat i had passion in and doing stuff tat makes me swear n curse but happy at v end of de day.how nice! For sure i'm gonna miss my class of fun peez and of cos Ting as we r getting into diff course.Those hippy times we shared,can't stop laughing session its really great..de girls had really added lots of chocolates..cream..sugar into my life.

I passed de interview..so does Rong.Both of us gt ourself a place in Fashion Management. I'm so excited abt it.It's my passion.=)

My day was'nt so gd..have certainly lost those confident in me.i'm unsure abt wad i wanted too. Well fate shall decide. God will guide me thr thin n thick and lead dere when de time is right.

2006-03-27T07:57:00.000-08:00

I'm freaking bored but yet too lazy or shall i said i have gt no mood to work on any project. Having super duper bad mood swing.

I miss daddy. When mommy rang him juz nw..i ran toward de phone and i gotta tok to daddy, told him abt my interview and ask him to buy things back for me.

Went for another hair cut today. I love my new hair style. Thx to Make A Diff!

ArggH..i miss de chance today..its my greatest regret of de month!!!wanted to slap myself for being dumb.. but
Somewhere..Someday..when de time is right. I might meet chance again.